Goodbye again

Yesterday, I found out a friend from Denver died of cancer - it hurts.  At firs,t I was just stunned thinking it was surreal, a dream, but reality is we suffered a loss.  I think I realize how far away I am from my closest friends in a time like this.  It's true I want to mourn, cry alongside of them.  I worked with Cary for nearly 8 years and although I wasn't in his closest circle, I knew him, appreciated him and valued him.  He was a man with a beautiful heart.  Today is just a day of tears.  I'm not sad he's with Jesus, I'd be more jealous if I thought about it.  I'm sad that I'm not with friends who are hurting and I'm sad I have to say goodbye to one more quality person in my life.  Saying goodbye just isn't fun.  I'll be grateful when goodbyes cease and I get to say hello to all who got to heaven before me.  Until then...hugs are nice.